Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Decision Making
Hi Peeps !!! I'm back. As promised. I'll update as soon as I can. Here I am. Jus finish sering a 2 day MC due to viral infection. I oso doe noe wat happened. I vomit veri easily nowadays. Some sae i'm working too hard some sae i put too much stress to myself. I doe noe but I do know all these can contribute. Oh Wells. I'm on observation for 2 weeks though. If i keep on vommitting, I may have to go for a scope session.
Thanks to all those who showed their care and concern for these 2 days. I realli appreciate it especially to my grandma. She took a very big risk as my sickness is contagious especially old people according to Candy. I felt so bad that I nearly left to stay somewhere else alone fearing that it might spread to them. She really took good care of me these 2 days when i was ill. She took care of all my meals, made herbal drinks for me force me to take my medicine. I woudn't hve recover so fast if not for her. Although my appetite wasn't gd but i finished everything that she gave me. Perhaps i realli miss her cooking, my heart was heavy when I am having my meals even though it was simple food like mee tai mak soup. Felt like crying actually. I felt so bad that I didn't visit my grandparents often. Por Por, I know that you wouldn't see this post but deep down in my heart. Xie Xie Ni dui wo de zhao gu. I will never forget what you have said and done for me.
Back to the point, after giving much thought bout it. I have made important decisions. Details will be reavealed as soon as everything is concrete. I guess i'm quite certain about it. It's difficult to continue. Either I'll go mad or something will happen. Haiz... I never thought this day would come but it has come. I had no other choices, I just doe noe how to continue. It's really difficult.
More decision making has to be done along the way. Jus a matter of time. It's painful indeed. Many factors have contributed to this important decision. All I can say is that it's really tough and it really takes alot to change everything. I'm not up to it. I'm Sorry. All the best to you and your team ! I'll still continue to help and contribute in what ever way I can in other ways. Alright. I'm suffering a mental block now. Feeling abit emotional now. My eyes are heavy. I need to do something about it. I'll be fine I guess.
How I wished you would be there for me !
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